So once again I’ve decided to start a blog I’ve tried before
and sadly failed to keep up with it. Only this time it’s different. I feel like
I have so much to say and want to share it with the cyber-world. I haven’t
exactly ever been the happiest person or maybe it just seems that way. I guess,
not many “big” things make me happy I don’t exactly need to have a lot of
friends or do silly things or go to extreme or non-extreme places to be happy.
I'm a very simple person and I’ve learned over the years that people don’t get
that about me. I'm easily happy talking to friends once in a while hanging with
extended family once in a while (I know you all will always be there and
knowing that is enough for me. I’m so grateful for each and every single one of
you) I don’t need dinner dates or outings every week just to keep my spirits
alive. I'm happy with a cup of coffee, Note that none of this is a lie, I'm
happy with a book , a keyboard or pen and paper that allows me to tell stories,
a camera hanging off my arm day and night. I'm happy with sitting in front of
the TV once a week for a couple of hours (sometimes none.) I'm happy being in my room alone… listening
to music, alone. I'm happy being a Nanny as my day Job it’s absolutely most fun
and very entertaining. I've come to realize that everyone in my immediate
family, are realistic people and I myself is the black sheep because I seem to
be the only dreamer. I didn’t realize this right away. Out of high school I
needed that life, the life of having many friends going places constant drama
seeing family regularly being bubbly being social I'm absolutely none of that
now. I'm still friendly, though, I don’t randomly talk to strangers like I used
to. It wasn’t until a few years after high school when I tried work and college
when I started to really find myself although many people think I have fallen
or let myself go I don’t see it that way at all this is more than that I’ve
started to realize that coffee is my addiction that I am absolutely passionate
about photography writing and books that I'm great at paper crafting and
actually see it as a future career. I want to write a book and I want it to be
published… to be read by millions and make it on the New York Times best
selling list. I want directors to take my book and make it a movie. I dream and
that’s a big dream and heck yeah that scares me probably as much as wanting a
little café that is also a gift shop that focuses on local hand-made crafts
from various types of people that sells
books ( Maybe my own!) by local authors or maybe my all time favorites ones
that I recommend and that scares me just
as much as making a business out of
handmade Invitations ( I have been doing this a while) I have dreams and I like
to dream big and if my dreams don’t scare me than I'm obviously not dreaming
big enough. And I'm shaking out of my boots so I think I'm dreaming pretty big.
I don’t really know what I expect to come out of this blog I just really,
really want to share my life story with others who relate to me or don’t and maybe
understand people like me because I'm not getting any younger I'm twenty five
and I'm a late bloomer at getting my life started but so what not everyone
begins at the same time. I never wanted to rush into anything and I love that
I'm taking my time. I believe everyone starts there life at their own pace and
this is mine. I don’t need anyone else to believe in me so long as I do.
My name is Sandi and I’m from the beautiful state of Oregon.
If you’ve been here I'm sure you know how beautiful it is. I live in the city
somewhat a city anyway it isn’t big but it’s not small either, a little in
between. I know that the way I'm living life now isn’t exactly the healthiest
way; getting to comfortable at being alone and becoming anti-social but as I said
above I have big dreams and I have every intention of making them come true. If
not all, at least one it’s never too late to start and I'm starting now. I hope
you’ll come to enjoy my blog as I'm planning to share this wonderful scary yet
exciting journey with you.
Thanks for reading!
Sandi
